When can I be me?


Hey folks, firstly I’d like to apologize for the long gap, as I got married recently and moved to Japan and it took me a while to adjust here and find time for my writing. Well moving to Japan is pretty exciting, the culture here is great, people are very polite, I love the fact how convenient it is to live here, which somehow scares my idea of moving back to India.

A lot being said about me being married, brings me to today’s topic, When can I be me? Well as you might have heard it takes a while for people to adjust after getting married.When I first heard that phrase I thought it meant that the couple needs some time to adjust to one another,but to my astonishment it doesn’t mean that.No it doesn’t.!

Before I got married I fancied the idea, of getting married. So many people treating you special, and as girls love attention, well I loved the Idea too.So, right after I got married things were pretty different from what I imagined. People started judging me, for the gold I wore, for my good or bad looks , for all the petty, materialistic things that never really mattered much to me. Even the people whom I knew before my wedding started judging me in many different ways. So I  thought to myself, hey.! this is just going to be for few days and after that I can live my life the way I want.But, I was wrong again.

Funny thing is even after moving to Japan, there were things being said as to, how I should be. Well,yeah when someone advises me I don’t mind,but if they impose that on me, I don’t want to be rude,but I just can’t take it anymore. When this kept on happening again and again, it just got to me that, will there be any time when I can be, like I want?

Right from your childhood to teenage we live according to our parents and society, even after marriage you are expected to live according to the society until god knows when.And then there comes a time when you become old and you have no hope in your life,and all you are left with are regrets.So when can a girl, live according to what she believes in?

As I live away from my people and society, I just act all perfect when I’m with them so as to respect their feelings.I do feel guilty that I’m not true to myself and to them, but then I don’t want to hurt them either.

But one wise decision, I made in my life was, to marry a man who respects the choices I make and never thrusts upon his ideas on me.So, that somehow pacified my guilt to an extent as he knows who the real me is.

So all that being said,  girls have two options. One to be the way you like and not care about the society, or dump your ideas, and be like you are being told to. Well, as for me and my acting skills go, transforming my self with a dot on the forehead, I can have the best of both worlds.

Learnt it one fine day.!

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Hope you all have a great day.!